The sun rose at the low angle it always does this time of year in Oregon. I walked in the neighborhood this morning, and let the rays, and the light, infiltrate the blankness of my morning thoughts. I am relieved that most of the time, when I am blank, these days positive thoughts fill my head.
I left Colorado in June, with the pain of a break up, and an uncertainty of destination. I looked outward for a place to feel at home again. I only found more loneliness and strangers.
I hiked the coast, I hiked the mountains, and I looked for the places where no one was. They were beautiful, and empty. The beauty was only realized to half of its potential because I was alone.
I didn't need a romantic partner to fill the void, I wasn't sure what would cure the emptiness. with no other options,. I went to visit some friends and found out that people still wanted to hang out with me. I also found out how little my friends of years knew about me.
I decided that I want to make a go of staying here. I found a job that can be a career position.
I work for some great people, and I am looking to make the most of the opportunity.
I live in Eugene, and the peaceful, true hippie vibe here is awesome. Not that tune in, turn on, and drop out vibe. the vibe of no racism, freedom of thought and expression, and the diversity and vibrancy of a college town. That is nestled next to a logging town that is conservative. The dichotomy of this makes life here interesting.
I will look into that and share what I find later.
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