Wings

You tell me they love me
you tell me they see
they provide for my safety
and then they beat me

The tears they flowed freely
the years piled up
rebellion it festered,
overflowed  young man's cup

don't smile, they'll see you

don't make noise they'll know

they might wanna grab you

then hit you some more. 

They don't give me answers
they don't give me truth
they don't help with homework
just booze and abuse

Why would you love me
but hurt me like this
a belt is a weapon
you don't use your fist

don't smile, they'll see you

don't make noise they'll know

they might wanna grab you

then hit you some more. 

abusers are cowards,
they prey on the weak
they know of the problem
don't dare turn your cheek



Finally, the fortress has a weakness exposed
the time to  leave is here, a problem imposed
the  problem is simple, just run, baby run

A brother, long beaten, no longer in fear
he takes him a shotgun, and points it right here

right here at the space, between my eyes
to pull the trigger, he tries and he tries

He spares me, I'm grateful
I still choose to run,
I'll never forget, staring IN that shotgun

Unspoken Truth

She said she was the one to kiss
she said she was the one I'd miss
before she ever gave me a kiss

Her hair was long it shined so nice
Her hair was blonde it shined so nice
so long and blonde and yes so nice
so nice I have tell you twice

She stood up and she was so tall
she was so tall and that ain't all
her legs looked right, from playing ball

She glanced at me, and I looked back
can I resist the smile attack?
Her face so glad, the joy she had
She looked so good, so downright bad

Her hair was long it shined so nice

Her hair was blonde, it shined so nice

so long and brown and yes so nice

so nice I have tell you twice

BRIDGE - SOLO

Just then the band, it blew an amp
I fell back,  got a cramp
sat right down, on the wheelchair ramp

She laughed at me, in agony
sitting down , clutching my knee
The girl so sweet, like a sugar beet
laughing insane, while I'm in pain

The band they had another amp
The leg recovered from the fucking cramp
The band they played, sweet music they made

the girl she chanced, with me to dance
my cramp was gone, it took three songs
we had a drink, and got along.
Next week that band, will play our song.

Becoming Safe

up with the sun, my mind is fast

hateful thoughts, a pallor cast

thoughts raise up, like a schooner's mast

feel safe today, no nuclear blast

voices in my head, a complex cast

cast on my wrist, cause I made a fist

I punched the wall, and that ain't all

I fell as far as one can fall

the dark side and I saw it all.

It feels like you're out of control

like you've fell into a hole

saving you? Not a soul

A positive thought can make you whole

and save you from the final blow

it's fun to laugh gently , it's fun to unwind

Boys don't hit people, they talk in tones that are kind

I get noticed , cause I'm kind of tall

I wasn't confident enough to try basketball

too scared to be a team mate

act like a man, when ever I can

from another's eyes,I understand

empathy turns fist to hand

I make the choice to let emotions fly

the thoughts they spin and tumble so quick

the rhymes are lush, the concepts quick

add a drum beat and a guitar lick,

The words I spoke ,yeah they were true

I never meant to frighten you.

my senses can, in time reveal

all the things I truly feel

safety first, the bubble burst

growing up fast, at this age

life is a play, and I pick the stage

problems come, just don't find rage

never feel like a rat in a cage

Searching for Gravity

Everytime you get near me, my weight it goes away

I recall the time I saw you first, like it was yesterday

your light so bright, an aura so right, I fell in love that way


You may think it's sudden, you may think it's weird

but not believing in pure love, is a thing that should be feared

spent lots of time to a dark dark place, and light still reappeared


why fight it, it's good when you bite it

the taste so sweet,  sugary shiny shoes, dancing on sweet feet


who the heck knows where the world goes, it turns and it turns and it turns

can passion truly be ignored, when just like this it burns?

So trust is a must, and friendship first,  the things that goodness earns



I only seek to walk along, with you to hold my hand

to find a beach, nearly out of reach, then count every grain of sand

hourglass, fancy lass, you always do me right

please take my hand, across this land, come fly with me tonight

why fight it, it's good when you bite it

the taste so sweet,  sugary shiny shoes, dancing on sweet feet

so now, yes now,  the secret spilled,  somehow, somehow the space gets filled

the doctor called, the patient billed, the thought unwilled, free will bears out

whisper, don't shout, be a bridge to peace , at the very least

a lion is regal but it's still a beast. the king he's called, his mane, four walled

the pride is led by several queens, and you know, yes you know, 

i wrote it before, make love, make love, don't make no more war. 

why fight it, it's good when you bite it

the taste so sweet,  sugary shiny shoes, dancing on sweet feet

Ode to an Itch

Thanks for comin to see the show

We work hard at our jobs, as we all well know

I'll do my best to make it worth your dime

I smile when I realize

 what it means to give me your time




This itch well it can kill you anyway,

but lots of us,

we try and scratch it every second every day




My subject goes by lots of names,

we could call him death

He played  lots of silly games

 random expressions of hate,

 often spoken under his breath

One night while drunk and stoned, he was trying to be a man

He gave a girl a ride home, doin' the best his cloudy mind can

His car got stuck in her driveway, he left it there to walk that day

This itch well it can kill you anyway, 

but lots of us, 

we try and scratch it every second every day

He sunddenly thought it fun to go inside a stranger's house

tip toe on the god damn floor as quiet as a mouse

the home owner  might have a gun

a cautious thought? he didn't have one

This itch well it can kill you anyway, 

but lots of us, 

we try and scratch it every second every day

The guy in bed, wasn't ready to be dead

a deal was made, a card was played

The cops drove up and did their job

they protect the people that death might rob

Death followed my friend for 20 years

he caused him pain, hell and tears

My friend is strong, like a bamboo reed

he always found the things he'd need

he loved the world , and cried inside

he had to ascend, he always tried

This itch well it can kill you anyway, 

but lots of us, 

we try and scratch it every second every day

he acted tough, just not enough

he got real scared, his soul was bared

was he good was he bad, was he ready to be a Dad

The kids they came, they played their game

the made my friend, wanna stick around,

he looked for more, of that love he found

This itch well it can kill you anyway, 

but lots of us, 

we try and scratch it every second every day

Death he saw , this was no game

His play was right, with all his might

he did the best he could that night

he did break in, and wore a grin

he fought a war for 20 yrs

always knew he would win.

This itch well it can kill you anyway, 

but lots of us, 

we try and scratch it every second every day

Seasons on the Summit

(with conviction)  Burning out won't fade away
A cloud hides the sun from below

Stinging shards of suspended snow

breath of creation, bringing love inside

useless attempt to hold the tide




They used to sing of fire and rain

times of seeing friends again

they used to sing of fire and rain

Not gonna ever lament the refrain




Songs of loss leaving you bold

Laughing at the winter, and spiting the cold.

Trying to find a reason, to do what you're told.

wanting to die and grow old


They used to sing of fire and rain

times of seeing friends again

they used to sing of fire and rain

Not gonna ever lament the refrain


Learning lessons every day

it took a lot of time to get this way

every breath like the first breath

learning love has a bottomless depth



They used to sing of fire and rain

times of seeing friends again

they used to sing of fire and rain

Not gonna ever lament the refrain


I'll never be lonely again

I try to be my best friend

wanna share the love inside

gonna stay this way till they say I've died.


They used to sing of fire and rain

times of seeing friends again

they used to sing of fire and rain

Not gonna ever lament the refrain

(with conviction)  Burning out won't fade away
this god damn star is here to stay

Get Up and Stay Standing, BOB

Time to run, time to train,

So bright I burn, weak minds refrain.

Go away and away you'll stay.

Underestimate and entertain


The strong remain, and we train.

Flush the water through nature's drain.

Show me the swale, and I'll moan and wail.

The Levee breaks, and my knees shake.

How long til the ring? Much more can I take?


Down to the sea for you and me

Come together and as one we'll be.

The rivers clear like melon juice

Weaker minds remain obtuse


 A Hawk takes flight, we'll split the night.

You plan the crime, and we'll commit it right

Again and again until the end.

You are my sweetest kindest friend.


The weight of freight, mind masturbate

Relegate and delegate and delegate and relegate

Show me how I should create, our laughter, watch them hate



Down to the sea for you and me

Come together and as one we'll be.

The rivers clear like melon juice

Weaker minds remain obtuse



The muse is loose, her melon juice

She cooked the goose and is on the loose

She gives me stars, skies, reds, whites, and blues

Sometimes we even exchange a bruise


Not  like that that! What did you say?

Fear and love and love and fear.

Sometimes they circle, and reappear


They Dance around and light up the ground.

Shrouded in light, pure love abounds.

My kindest friend until the end

I will say it again, and again , and again

Down to the sea for you and me

Come together and as one we'll be.

The rivers clear like melon juice

Weaker minds remain obtuse


Down to the sea for you and me

Come together and as one we'll be.

The rivers clear like melon juice

Weaker minds remain obtuse

Made Up, Comp-letely

Intelligence, bewellingence, either way you get the gist

Long ago gave up the fist, traded a symbol for a cymbal, and stopped holding fifths

I actually thought it had something to miss, an evil kiss, a total dis, like the skin tossed away at a bris

bring it back, heart attack, not enough money, not enough crack, the jail cell, flat on my back

Turn the sail, find a tack, there has to be something of which I lack



blood on snow, where did it go, the reds, and the pinks, and the whites still show

pay the toll, take a stroll, get on a wheel, and let it roll




daily life daily strife, right now someone just hit his wife. she cheated too, it went through,

your choices are entirely up to you. fly around, make some sound, only believe you're glory bound

there is a weight on your neck, don't just let it lead you around





blood on snow, where did it go, the reds, and the pinks, and the whites still show

pay the toll, take a stroll, get on a wheel, and let it roll

take a pill if you will, some of us smoke and make a joke, take a toke, your mind is broke

the companies are like a wheel not a spoke, the funny bloke, the artichoke, the heart is the part

wake up daily, put on your face, find something to fill the space, wear a mask, carry a flask,

just don't give me too many questions to ask





blood on snow, where did it go, the reds, and the pinks, and the whites still show

pay the toll, take a stroll, get on a wheel, and let it roll

blood on snow, where did it go, the reds, and the pinks, and the whites still show

pay the toll, take a stroll, get on a wheel, and let it roll

Try to Love

We all grew up together, whether we liked it or not
We all remember the winters, the summers so humid and hot.

The times we spent at the Falls, the malls, and the parks.
We celebrated our lights, and we comforted other's darks.

Time it means nothing, and the place you're from means less.
The place and the people we carry with us, well
They're simply the best. 

Connected by common places. I remember all of your faces.
Walking the halls to our classes. Some of us now wear glasses.

Some of us had children, and some of them are grown.
No matter where we are going. The town is still our home. 

Time it means nothing, and the place you're from means less.
The place and the people we carry with us, well
They're simply the best. 


Parks  in the summer, the bugs could be a bummer.
Carnivals  in the spring, memories make us sing.

Our fights, our parties, our loves, our loss.
We all get to celebrate, growing olders' costs.

Time it means nothing, and the place you're from means less.
The place and the people we carry with us, well
They're simply the best. 

January Sanctuary

January Sanctuary, the snow and cold take hold

I'd like to have the chance to leave, but the snowdrifts are too bold

I think I'll go inside my house, it's easier to live

Inside there are things I found and the memories they give



What's on your wall, where will you put it all

the shelves must be high, for you really must stand tall




A candle in the bathroom,  a picture by the sink

I can't stand washing dishes, but it's sure nice to think

Wildflowers, pretty pink, I guess I know ya like to drink

I think I'll take a walk outside, enjoy the peace I find

Sometimes people hate so much, only solitude is kind




What's on your wall, where will you put it all

the shelves must be high, for you really must stand tall


The time, the lime, the rhyme, the grime,

Please burn me in the end.

Of all the people that I've known, you are my kindest friend


Smoke takes prayers, and prayers are smoke

cares are  jokes our  jokes our  cares

Just leave your shoes at the bottom of my stairs.

Some times reduction, should probably stop at pairs. 



What's on your wall, where will you put it all

the shelves must be high, for you really must stand tall


The time, the lime, the rhyme, the grime,

Please burn me in the end.

Of all the people that I've known, you are my kindest friend


Take my hand and I'll take yours, I'll even do some simple chores.

Just don't ever forget, the campfires are for smores

A plane can fix some doors, the oceans all have shores, I could maybe buy some stores.




What's on your wall, where will you put it all

the shelves must be high, for you really must stand tall


The time, the lime, the rhyme, the grime,

Please burn me in the end.

Of all the people that I've known, you are my kindest friend

Always Bet on Yourself

Few thousand years ago
Dude named  Ceaser ran the show
He had some stuff  and some friends
His friends they stabbed him in the end.
They weren’t gonna call him king
He wanted  to let freedom ring
He had ideas that’s the thing
They trusted him their song to sing

Just walk into the senate
Keep your eyes on your friends
No matter how life turns out
always justify the ends

little kids eat sweet stuff
 sandpapers not very rough
he loved them all in his own way
fear became murder, historic day

ambition led to the knife
His best friends shed his blood
Calpurnia at home alone
Ceaser full of blood and mud

Just walk into the senate
Keep your eyes on your friends
No matter how life turns out
always justify the ends

few thousand years have gone by
They stabbed Ceaser he did not die
Levels of death, breath, no breath
It’s all about your lack of depth

Brutus got jealous he wanted to rise
In a gaze so strange to us
stabbing his friend , looking in his eyes
The guilt of hate, was his prize.
Little things Over which we fuss
The way out's simple, get off the bus
Put on your toga, and get on your way.  aaaannnnndddd

Just walk into the senate
Keep your eyes on your friends
No matter how life turns out
always justify the ends

Storm King

I almost slid off a mountain, two rocks were in the way
I wish I never had chosen, to go past the sign that day
The first rock went off the mountain, about three thousand feet down
If I took that same drop off, I might not ever be found.

Go get your ass on the mountain, take a swim at the coast
Sunlight, longnight, feels fun, don't wanna fight
life of crime, killing time,  music flows on down the line

I had a few seconds to wonder, what was gonna happen next
This was just a little different, than waiting for my lovers text
Three thousand feet below me, some jagged rocks were out
A few feet from the precipice, I thought what life was about

Go get your ass on the mountain, take a swim at the coast
Sunlight, longnight, feels fun, don't wanna fight
life of crime, killing time,  music flows on down the line

A lone rock now in front of me, as I slid towards the ledge

I knew in that split second, no more living on the edge

Love and light showed the way down, she's waiting for me in a warm town.

I knew I wanted to live, and I shut my ego down

Go get your ass on the mountain, take a swim at the coast

Sunlight, longnight, feels fun, don't wanna fight

life of crime, killing time,  music flows on down the line

The rock somehow , it saved me, it held my weight so fine

That love that that rock gave me, well, it became all mine.

The rock, and the lock, and the stock, and the smock

We all wear them some time, so just get up on the mountain
and everything will be fine!

Go get your ass on the mountain, take a swim at the coast
Sunlight, longnight, feels fun, don't wanna fight
life of crime, killing time,  music flows down the line

Leaving Home

I hail from a semi small town
the folks there think they are renowned
The town is just letters on a map
it's lasting impression, the size of a clap

I had to leave, I had to go
The sky was dark, the wind didn't blow
The trees all slept for half the year
the color gone, replaced with fear

Time to go , time to leave
I got some troubles
you can't possibly beleive

When I left, I took a bus
I rode three time, from dawn to dusk
got off the bus and I was there
I take those troubles everywhere

One day I thought, as I walked
in my mind,  confusion walked
I thought the thoughts, I saw the ghosts
The lake below, gave me the most

Time to go , time to leave
I got some troubles
you can't possibly beleive

The night was cold, the wind it blew.
The way to live, you always knew
find a tree and sit down
forget about that little town

sing a song, walk some more
hear the waves crash on the shore

Time to go , time to leave
I got some troubles
you can't possibly beleive

600 second brain dump

A cascade like a wave
Washing over me.
Minimal resistance
I thought of bending
At the knee

Some think they are blind
Eyes open all the time
Some think they are kind
Bring them a lemon
They ask for a lime

Lemons, limes,
a few chill Rhymes
smiles from a dime
awesome time


Confusion sets in
Then I know, pretty sure I know
Then I know the fun begins
It is this much fun?
like shooting a gun, or chasing the sun?

So many so called sins
Sardines come in little tins
You eat the bones and the fins.


Lemons, limes,
a few chill Rhymes
smiles from a dime
awesome time




What to do where to go
Every day the same damn show
Long hair short hair, broke rich,No one cares. No one fights no one dares. The stares and the glares took all the cares, threw them out along the back stairs.

The light was out. I had to shout . Many strange hazy  shapes, dancing about. The power gone, an unpaid bill. Your daddy spent the money on pills. Society, let's own our ills. Breathe with gills and let the spaces fill. Air water high low where does it end? When did it go? How the hell am I supposed to know?
I read some  books And gave dirty looks. You never returned the shirt you took. I remember the plot but forget the book. A crook by a brook watched a wet dog who shook. Water water every where flying about off the dogs hair. Wine is fine, when it's not mine.

My Love is a Diamond

You can't buy my love in a store
Got a fat diamond? Well, My love is worth more.

You can't hang a name on my love.
 It will bring you more peace than any white dove.

My love is a diamond
My love is a pearl
My love is mine
A gift , for you girl

Love of this type ain't found in a store.
 Don't try to compare it  with money , 'cause it's worth a lot more.

You were there from the start, You earned my trust and my heart
We walked and talked and made silly rhymes, You share my joy, and light my darkest times



My love is a diamond
My love is a pearl
My love is mine
A gift , for you girl

For seven years, our candle glowed. Out of the blue, you say your love's gone cold?

Our affair is over, you're headed out the door? You won't stay one minute more?

My love is a diamond
My love is a pearl
My love is mine
A gift , for you girl

My world colored black. Please turn back.
I'll give you my best , if you just turn back
You're my sacred friend, stay till the end

You say you seek shiny jewels?
I have gems, kept in sparkling pools


My love is a diamond
My love is a pearl
My love is mine
A gift , for you girl

Fear, Contact, Diving, Dancing

I write this today as I sit down in a shady spot and listen to some rock n roll and relax some until I go to a class today for something I feel drawn to, and barely understand why.

I have chosen to learn contact improv dance. Here is a link to a great informative site with a great deal of information about the fairly young dance style. It is actually younger than I am, but more and more seems to be that way everyday. LOL.  http://www.contactquarterly.com/contact-improvisation/about/cq_ciAbout.php
This is a good instructive video for beginners. 

I ponder the topic and I begin to shed light on what I seek by going. I want to continue to learn more about trusting people. Larger circles. Spiraling outward. I wanna make as much of the universe aware of the beauty of life. That's why I write. It reminds me. I guess it's nice to get positive reinforcement from my work.

I am realizing that dancing can be a form of therapy. One we all can use. In higher doses. More love, less fear, more growth, less regression. Our daily claim on existence , expressed in such beautiful form. What is there to be afraid of?

It is also intimate on a certain level to touch and share the forces of gravity in the way required for contact improv dance.

I have the benefit of a lifetime(4.3) decades or so, of athletics and some dancing ability so I am not going in blindly. I certainly am no health purist. I lead a healthy lifestyle bit could change some things to be healthier. The point is, I am a novice.

This endeavor, a new one, gives me a chance to learn about myself and others at the same time. I prefer it that way to solitary time. I will write no more now, pre class.  The next paragraph will be post class. Look for changes. I will be.

The first thing that came to mind as I stretched on the hardwood floor of the studio was how the huge open windows looked east over the city to the distant peaks of the Cascades. I felt safe, and was awash with the images, and memories, of countless hours, alone,. at peace amongst the Douglas Firs, and sword ferns of the foothills. I also noticed the absence of music. WTH? This was dancing. No music?

I watched a couple of people roll and writhe, and lift each other off the floor, and decided to rolol near them. In a matter of minutes I was transformed. I touched and rolled and writhed, and lifted, and was lifted.
The trust I was seeking came without effort, and the reward was infinite, and timeless.

I felt like I had gotten a great massage, gotten rid of a great deal of negative energy I had been storing.  I realized how important having my mind, soul, and body, aligned both internally, and outwardly are to happiness. All for a low donation. LOL.

If anyone has a curiosity about the dance style, I hope this answered a few questions. Now follow the advice of the Grateful Dead. "TURN ON YOUR LOVE LIGHT, AND LEAVE IT ON!"

BUGZ, AND THUGZ, AND LADYBUGZ

Riverbank Sunday in Colorado
The neatest effect a silvery liquid shadow

River rolls by and people run
I sit here thinking and having fun

See some herons dancing in the sky
I like babies and I know why

Time stands still on the riverbank
Kill the rumor mill on the goodness bank

Goodness and love from below and above

Goodness and love from below and above

The whole wide world on the back of a dove
The love from above fits like a glove

Envelop yourself in some warm fine hugs
sit by the river with the ladybugs

Bums and Thugs, and those that use drugs
they all agree to love ladybugs

Goodness and love from below and above
Goodness and love from below and above

Time to share it, I can't spare it

The Last Book

The train named elevation is leaving the station

so give me your fixation, I'll manifest a revelation

A little inspiration, creates a conversation

locomotive beat center situation


The thought so  sharp, a minor laceration

the pain feels good, so I give it adulation


When negativity finds you, resist escalation.

If you want to run fast, control acceleration

brakes get real warm , glowing red,

it's only dissipation....

of the heat we create, when we recreate creation


The healing we share is my favorite radiation

so perfect requires minor calibration.

When we are done, I have the cutest abrasions

What my Irish Mind Sees

Here it is, another St. Patrick's Day, another lovely Irish holiday
I was raised Irish Catholic, I came up that way.
Love of song, work, and the land,
the type of work that's hard, that you do with your hands.

The warriors from pagan times, the limericks with their dirty rhymes.
Being Irish suits me just fine. I actually prefer beer to wine.

My Father loved to hunt, and work and fish
I wish I knew for what he wished
He never wanted to tell me, when we fished

Shape shifting myths about warriors of old
Fine Celtic stories, to my own children I've told.

Green is a color, that suits my eye,
Orange, is a mood, I like in my eye
The white of unity, is for us to try.
To achieve more unity, every day
To love each other, THE ONLY RIGHT WAY!

Tears and Muscle ..AKA ..Love

Our lives should be written in the stars.
We wear ink just like bumper stickers, on our cars.
We build prisons in our mind, 
and put ourselves behind the bars

Through tears and muscle, we become free.
These try to add from one, and create one or two or three.
Our minds are as complex as computer chips
Most people we meet, only brief, brief blips.

Once in a great while, sub atomic particles collide
And infinitely multiply the potential energy they hold inside.
Finding the match , the electron that fits
Is a worthwhile task, when you're ready for it. "

Part of growing things is planting seeds,
thinning weeds, and providing for needs.

Love has needs , on trust it feeds. 
The deeper the trust. The more the love breeds.

Love has a speed set to cruise
Accelerate ? You're bound to lose
you will lose the love you seek
you'll THINK you're strong,
but KNOW you're weak

I have decided to live to deny suicide
Not that I ever really tried, sure I cried
 yet I Always held a dream inside

The sun is too bright, the world to right,
For me to ever give up the fight.

When I sought love, I rejected false might
See, love has a might, in it's own right.
At least I've gained the gift of sight.
Love comes at a pace, a pace of it's own
Best not change the pace or off you're thrown.