Becoming Safe

up with the sun, my mind is fast

hateful thoughts, a pallor cast

thoughts raise up, like a schooner's mast

feel safe today, no nuclear blast

voices in my head, a complex cast

cast on my wrist, cause I made a fist

I punched the wall, and that ain't all

I fell as far as one can fall

the dark side and I saw it all.

It feels like you're out of control

like you've fell into a hole

saving you? Not a soul

A positive thought can make you whole

and save you from the final blow

it's fun to laugh gently , it's fun to unwind

Boys don't hit people, they talk in tones that are kind

I get noticed , cause I'm kind of tall

I wasn't confident enough to try basketball

too scared to be a team mate

act like a man, when ever I can

from another's eyes,I understand

empathy turns fist to hand

I make the choice to let emotions fly

the thoughts they spin and tumble so quick

the rhymes are lush, the concepts quick

add a drum beat and a guitar lick,

The words I spoke ,yeah they were true

I never meant to frighten you.

my senses can, in time reveal

all the things I truly feel

safety first, the bubble burst

growing up fast, at this age

life is a play, and I pick the stage

problems come, just don't find rage

never feel like a rat in a cage